Friday 27th March 2020
We are all different in our own special way and no one is out together wrong.
When it comes to what un-nerves us and rocks our world in a bad way is a different matter.
Anxiety has so many different ways it can affect us.
I used to have terrible anxiety attacks before I would fly. The only thing that would get me through it was because I would look forward to the destination.
It would mostly be hot beachy places so it would calm me down. Over time I would teach myself how to go through the different stags before a holiday as it would always start 4 weeks before hand.
I have not had a holiday for 6 or more years now so have been anxiety free in that whole time.
Since the beginning of March when this whole CV19 virus started to build up I have had these attacks some back.
They have not been as worse as the flight ones but even so they have come back with a vengeance.
Its the not knowing that stresses us out. As I mention in my video message on onlyfans that this is something we only have seen in films (eg:Contagion 2011) .
Its strange how when Scott Z Burns an American screen writer wrote this back in 2011 or before got a lot of the facts exactly right to what is happening today.
I will not be watching the full length film of it as I watched a trailer of it and it was scary enough for me.
I say scary because it is very much reality now but back then when people watched it with interest it was fiction.
Every film has an ending and I don’t want to know how this is going to end until it does…